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[23 Dec 2009|11:19pm] |
She gets what she wants and she breaks what she gets,
get out while you can or she'll tear you to pieces.
"Are you having a good time sweetheart?"
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[23 Dec 2009|08:48pm] |
Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget
It’s your life
What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who
Your heart beats for
It’s an open door
It’s your life
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[23 Dec 2009|05:13pm] |
so, being single during the holidays really does suck
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[23 Dec 2009|07:42pm] |
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I can't sing
In the right key
I can't play
Guitar by ear
I'm a disaster
Wearing a smile
Trying not to cry
Each time I fall
Each time I fail
Because everything gets harder
Everyday
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I can't sing
In the right key
I can't play
Guitar by ear
I'm a disaster
Atleast
That's what they
Make me believe
*Does this make any sense?*
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| Christmas! |
[24 Dec 2009|10:22am] |
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Last Saturday, I went to see Avatar with Snarfie. I enjoyed the first two thirds of the movie the most, but thought overall it was a very enjoyable experience. I maintain it is all about the internet, and want a USB cable in my hair so I can intuitively connect to my computer/PDA/iPod (which I would have bonded with and conquered, rather than purchased). Then we went to Ben's parent's house for a lovely birthday BBQ, and dropped by Snarfie's parents.
Sunday was the Loggod Christmas party, though the weather was hot the food and the company was great. Monday, Tuesday, and yesterday were largely filled with tidying up and house work.
My Christmas haul this year has been uncommonly excellent - oxfam seed donation gift thingies, lovely ginger bread, lots of nice cards, and two of those push-out plyboard assemble-yourself thingies. The two highlights, it must be said were the life sized cut out Snape (HELL YES!), and the surprising yet wonderful Warhammer stuff.
Snarfie and I are getting into Warhammer (he's building a Skaven army, I'm naturally going with the Lizard Men), and so he bought himself Battle For Skull Pass. Surprisingly, his parents turned up with another Battle for Skull Pass box they'd nabbed from a second hand store. It was a complete set, and though the person who'd assembled the figures and started painting them was very careless, I am deliriously happy to have a set to paint up myself. I spent three days with a stanley knife shaving off the sprue scars and painting over the crappy paint jobs with gesso, and another day modding all my goblin spear tips (two prongs, ivory-like paint job, makes 'em recognisably mine while not spoiling the aesthetic). I've also made two nifty custom boxes, lined with bubble wrap, so I can store / transport my little figures without damaging 'em... And then, lo, Snarfie gave me the Lizard Men warbook and skink regiment! So, my strategy is to practise modding and painting on the skull pass armies (goblins and dwarfs), and then apply my honed skills to the lizard-ey goodness.
Woo!
Today I've renewed my LJ subscription for another year, and am about to embark on a gift-buying quest for a friend's birthday (I would've done it much earlier, but a planned shared gift fell through so I'm on my own to battle the christmas crowds). I have a couple of ideas of what to get, most of which involve my making stuff... Mnnn...
Oh, yeah, I finished the frog's feet and scale plates, and have done all I can for organising the ANU video competition stuff (now I just need people to get back to me). So, the only outstanding project I need to get a move on with right now is fixing up my old websites, something I hope to start today. Also, gotta make more icons.
Oh, yeah, as always, I drew stuff.
Fabulous, Darling by ~muffin-wrangler on deviantART
Generator Gawl by ~muffin-wrangler on deviantART
Naghavi Navi by ~muffin-wrangler on deviantART
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[24 Dec 2009|03:13pm] |
1. I am afraid that everything I enjoy now is a phase, just like my parents said it was.
They are wonderful, wonderful people, sure.
But I strive to prove them wrong, at least once.
I am just another stupid teenager.
2. I wish the O'Reilly Factor would get cancelled. I seriously think I will start praying for it.
That asshole doesn't deserve a show.
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| Sigmund Freud |
[23 Dec 2009|09:45am] |
The sexual life of adult women is a “dark continent” for psychology. When inspiration does not come to me, I go halfway to meet it. Being entirely honest with oneself is a good exercise. I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection. The great question that has never been answered, and which I have not yet been able to answer, despite my thirty years of research into the feminine soul, is “What does a woman want?”
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[23 Dec 2009|01:23pm] |
I'm terribly afraid of pushing the people I care about away from me, but right now I don't care. Well, I do, but it's about time I told this person the truth.
Secret: it's all just a cry for attention.
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[23 Dec 2009|10:53pm] |
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"Share with me a salute to the fabulous four, the glories of our age, the bringers of joy to our and future generations. Because there will always be poverty and pain and war and injustice in this world, but there will also always be The Beatles." - The Boat that Rocked
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[23 Dec 2009|03:15am] |
It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
& you won't bring me down
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[23 Dec 2009|03:32am] |
The show House MD dictates so much of my life:
**I won't take any class or join any club that meets at all during 8-9 pm on Mondays.
**Though I had other reasons, it was a big inspiration in my (now abandoned) goal of being a doctor.
**Therapy couldn't get me to renounce suicide as an option, but re-watching a particular episode from season five did in an instant.
...and it makes me feel more than a little pathetic.
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| RANT TIME |
[22 Dec 2009|11:21pm] |
1. It's a hickey. Get over it.
2. I'm tired of being the taxi for my friends.
3. I hate my birthday. What I hate more is that everyone expects me to be super excited about turning another year older. Woot?
4. It's a birthday and yes I may have a small fear of getting older but I just don't give a shit.
5. My friend slept over last night. We are really close. While she was a sleep she started to spoon me. I didn't want to move because I didn't want to scare her. It was super awkward and nice at the same time.
6. Apparently I made out with ______ two years ago before she was sent away. I forgot about it but when she brought it back up again my face turned super red. Right there and then I wanted to make out with her hard core. *sigh* being a loyal girlfriend is hard some times.
7. He spilled beer on my hair(on purpose). Instead of getting really pissed off I got really happy..........is that weird?
8. I was hanging out with some old friends and I haven't been so happy in so long. It makes me sick knowing it's possible for me to be this happy.
9. I am not excited for Christmas this year. I know it will be boring!
10. I am obsessed with this song "I like that" shhhhhhhh
11. I made food and I don't want to eat it anymore.
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[23 Dec 2009|01:03am] |
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- I honestly can't stand my family. The past 2 years of independence were the best time of my life...now that i'm back home, everyday i tell myself i want out of this damn house and back to Houston. I love my family very much, but i can no longer live with them, its always that feeling i've had even when i was young. Once i get out....i'm never going to come back.
- I found the girl i will always love no matter what she says or does. Even if i end up being with someone else, i know i can never give anyone the love i will always have for her because i will still love her. i'm trying and still keep on trying to win her love back....honest to god, i want to spend my life with her. I would do ANYTHING for her.
- My mum, i love her from the bottom of my heart. Yet, I could never forgive her for all the things she promised me. All end up being broken, and i'm stuck with this large amount of debt....moved back home because i really thought she could help me out...nothing but lies coming out her mouth!!!!
- I miss her the most, she's a really huge part of my life.
- I think about ways to end my life cause things were not going right for me. plus i think i will die at an early age.
- My mind is oftentimes a sex movie...everything i look at...i can imagine people having sex in the spot.
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